Waiting cannot change much, actions will :)

Hey readers, sup?
how wuz ur day?
Hope y'all havin a good time, cuz im pretty happy today,
except for one thing, 
senior page gonna put me as a disgusting student....
why can't they remember this new me?
dat old disgusting self i left it 3 years ago,
dayum, not real friends to me , people change, and thats what they fear most,
Drastic changes can really scare someone,
but i'm coping with it,
should i enlighten them on how am i doing that?
or maybe they don't deserve my knowledge,
i do admit i am stupid and no bigger than just a student,
i just haven't brandished my talents,
so maybe that's why, but i don't get any opportunity to show mine,
usually i am limited by other people's thoughts, 
they deny me on showing my talent,
what can i do.... just have to watch from a distance :/


Anyways, i am waiting for something to happen,
still hoping for a miracle to show itself,
still waiting for hearts to bind permanently,
still waiting for myself to choose what's right and wrong,
but if i am going to keep waiting, 
then nothing's gonna happen,
so, i'll make it happen ^_^
Nothing is filled with darkness, 
it's just dusty and left out for a short while,
or maybe a long time,
everything has some light shining into them,
just that we commonly choose the other darker and unlit path down,
it's bad for us to do so and why do we still follow down that path?
 Only reason is, we can change things with our actions, 
we can light a brighter path down a dark one,
benefiting not only ourselves, but other people :)
But somehow waiting seems to be a more quiet and peaceful idea,
waiting for something to rise again may take almost forever,
but some of these waiting will avoid us from risking ourselves into troubles,
troubles have many values that we can learn, 
but in the process it hurts one very badly,
even philosophy cannot describe the pain,
but one can only hold pain for a limited time before resulting in suicide,
who created suicide anyway?


It's practically one of the stupidest way to solve problems,
it ends your life while the problem is still at hand,
passing on these problems to the younger generations,
such a stupid and sad decision, 
of all things, why do people still choose suicide?
Reasons are mostly unknown due to terrible memories and pain throughout their lives....
I do wish i can help them to turn back,
but actually all we can do is to send our words of advice to them,
but it's up to them to listen to it or not,
luck may be on our side and we'll eventually save a life through counselling  
we shall not leave our friends to rot with sadness,
take your time to listen to their stories,
it's the only way to cure their sadness,
head on and talk to them :)