Days, Nights, Thoughts..... finally the exam arrives to my doorstep

Everyday i think about you,
I thought of letting you go,
and letting someone else into my life,
but i still don't know why,
i still choose to keep you in my mind,
its not a curse and nor is it something suffering,
when i think about you,
i feel much happier,
that you stepped into my life,
i had never expected someone,
like you to arrive so early,
if only you'd understand me much better,
misunderstandings would have been avoided....


My mind keeps telling me that,
All i need is some patience,
and to act at the right time,
and i also keep having imaginations,
that i we were together on a holiday,
along with my other friends,
but i don't see that day's arrival,
sad thoughts flood my mind frequently,
but i still resist it and act normal,
just don't want others to see,
what's in my mind.........
It has been successful for quite some time,
but i don't know how long it will hold....


Every single thought that floods my mind,
when i talk to you around school,
were the most pleasant,
but yet i still seem to always be further from you,
if only everything would be better... and more ....normal....
but the world would be one of the most boring place,
if everything is so "normal" .... 
The world we live in now, 
has ups and downs,
which makes life way more interesting...


I always want to be there for you,
but my presence is always absent,
because you are always missing from your class,
but i find it normal because,
who can sit in class and do nothing for a whole day?
no one can handle that type of boredom,
cuz everyone in my school is very active....


After these few months thinking about you,
i just noticed how near my trial exams are,
and i still have loads to catch up on,
sometimes half of me ask myself,
why waste your time any further, 
you're gonna jeopardize your future if you keep this up,
furthermore, when will you accept your fate?
i answered it today,
my future is worth sacrificing just to be with her,
My fate now is according to what i chose,
besides,
i've known her for more than 4 years already,
it's time to make my move,
you can keep asking me these questions,
but i will always answer it,
for .... no distance, 
or reason,
or question,
or calamity,
can separate love...
The true power within love is limitless....