My Own Decided Sin and my saddest n happiest day on December 2nd (Part 3)

So, i just kept on drinking tea, in thought of regaining my consciousness, but it was just the same, the beer didn't make me drunk, but a huge headache, even Raymond thought i was drunk, well, was a little dizzy, but i caught hold of myself in 15 minutes. I was a little clumsy, at the part where i decided to serve the food to them, but my serious face was on, i think it kinda scared her...  too much, well, in the end i still had a cup of beer before we left, we reached usj2 by midnight after being caught up in the jam for an hour, everyone was asleep in the car except me and Raymond
we took our time and talked some funny stuff up, and i couldn't remember where was her house when we dropped off, must have been the headache or something, i reached home at 12.30 midnight, i took a shower, and brought my laptop up to my bed to check on the facebook... i realised no one was online, and i started to imagine the loneliness ever since i was in primary school, deciding about whether i should face society or not, there was no one to talk me out of avoiding it. Oh well, i spent the last 10 minutes on RC and all other facebook apps, checking and doing some stuff before going to bed, the beer feeling was burning though, only on the next day, i placed a deep thought into what i did yesterday, and thru my own observation, i scared her alot, before turning to Raymond on facebook in the morning, talked to him, n he told me the same thing, so, my conclusion has been confirmed, scaring the person i loved the most.... left me thinking of it for a few weeks before school week started, sent an apology sms to her including with an invitation to her, but i didn't know she started working until when i called her one morning and heard the "office surrounding" background thru her phone, but my 2nd  mistake was giving her b'day present late, well, i think she wouldn't mind about that really, cuz, until now i still haven't given it to her yet =='' , call me un-punctual but i really wanted to talk to her, but ever since that day, my confidence was slightly reduced while talking to her, but that experience that day, gave me some experience on knowing how to talk to new people, thats all for that day, and the next morning, hope u enjoyed my "REAL" story, cuz i really placed a lot of regret into drinking in front of her. Thank you :)