Dear memories, 
why won't you leave me alone,
 is this another test towards my patience?


I have already accepted it, 
screw yourself and get something else to screw around, 
i have a life, a test, a challenge, 
let me complete them in peace,
begone and never be seen forever....


1/06/2011


"She" pops up in my mind again,
causing me to thing really hard again,
cost me 2 hours of not being able to sleep,
every bit of memory has been displayed before me again,
i start to wonder, 
why wont both of us let each other go?
Why.....

The rest of the day has been boring,
i even made an enemy through flagging illegal submissions,
on the gb forum, 
guess that guy just can't handle critics,
it has been an honour to finally receive a good comment from,
"Fallout" - a high rank source engine compiler....


2/6/2011
Sometimes i wonder,
Is it me who won't let her heart go,
Or is it her who wont let my heart go...
None will find peace until this is solved,
the best memory is just to erase it....


"I never knew perfection til'
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do? ..."


Listening from that song reminds me,
every single bit and detail, 
in my mind,
and yet it hurts so much,
i still want to embrace it,
not many will understand why,
but some will,
my shoes are free for you to step inside,
feel my pain, the despair, the darkness,
i miss every moment i was with you in school,
i wish time would be kind enough to turn back itself,
it never arrives at all, 
pain is something to embrace and grow stronger,
each pain marks the solidity of your heart and mind,


how many times have you broken down?
how many times have you fell?
how many times you've been stabbed in the back?
how many friends do you have what been through with you thick and thin?


Beauty is a curse,
you are attractive,
attracting what?
Good or bad no one knows,
it contributes to more broken hearts,
half separated loves,
scars that last for an eternity,
no one will know except your "pretty/handsome" self,
that may not explain my statement, 
but i do hope it is enough to understand,
painful it may be but it makes a person stronger on each curve...


Skills are blessings from god,
mostly learnt through hard-earned effort,
it sticks to you forever,
it serves you faithfully without letting you down,
even if it did, its just a sign that you need to step up to the next level,
fight your way through and live....


Till then, i'll find my way through,
find yours and you too will become successful


Broken pieces,
Just let it go,
it isn't yours,
kill that feeling,
its not worth dying for,
he/she has released you,
appreciate your freedom,
do not regret your decision,
look towards your future,
there's still billions of fish in the ocean,
throw your line,
go get it 


Peace ;D

The troubled, 
XFiAudigy Wei Siong